I want to quit.
Why am I having the same feelings I had one year ago?
Hello lovely friend
Hope this Sunday’s treating you well. Welcome to a brand new edition of Be Your Best Friend with Anangsha - the weekend newsletter that keeps on looking for ways to make life better.
If you clicked on this newsletter because of the title, then let me share my story.
On 5th September 2021, I quit my full-time job as an Assistant Professor of Civil Engineering at NIT Silchar to become a writer. Before that, for almost 6 months, I’d had a strong feeling that I want to quit.
Nothing in my job excited me. I felt a strong pull towards writing. And deep down, I knew I deserved better than to spend my whole life in a small town struggling every month for a salary that barely let me enjoy any luxuries.
Yes, it was a noble profession, but I knew my time for it was over.
And so, I quit.
I pursued my passion and designed the life of my dreams.
Then, why do I feel the same way again?
For the past few weeks, I feel like I’m so done with this life.
Yes, I’m living my dream. I’m making more money than I ever had in my life. I’m impacting so many lives directly (by paying salaries, giving amazing freelance opportunities, and helping writers with my YouTube videos and digital products).
Writing is supposed to be my passion.
This was the reason why I quit a stable central government job.
Why, then, do I still feel this way?
I wish I had a concrete answer for you, but currently, I don’t.
I’m thoroughly enjoying this phase of life, but I also know I’m meant for much bigger things.
I don’t want to be stuck forever in this loop of writing for freelance clients, writing on Medium, and selling digital products. I want to do work that directly impacts thousands, if not millions of lives.
Life is short, and our stay on this planet is numbered.
I want to leave a massive Anangsha-shaped hole in the Universe when I go.
The work I currently do is great. But it doesn’t match the pace of my ambitions. It’s very small compared to the scale of my dreams.
Troubled with these feelings, I sat down with a journal a few nights ago and wrote down the kind of life I want.
It wasn’t an easy process, but as I gave myself time, I realized exactly what I want to do. This new dream is so large-scare, that I was terrified to even write it down in my journal.
But you get only one life. And if you’re daring to dream, why not dream BIG?
And so, that’s what I’m going to do.
I’m dreaming BIG, bigger than anything I’ve ever dared to before, and I’m making plans to make this dream a reality. And in this new and exciting journey, I need your good wishes and love.
Can I count on your support, dear friend?
I’m still going to write on Medium and I’m still going to write for my freelance clients. I’ll keep building digital products that directly help my readers. But I’m also starting a secret project that’s going to take the world by storm in the next 365 days.
As members of my email family, you’re the first to know of this internal turmoil. And when I’m ready to share about my stealth project, you’ll be the first to know.
Until then, keep reading what I write, For when I’m done with my new project, this relationship we have will change. Heck, my life is going to take a complete 360-degree turn if it succeeds (and I know it will, because very few things fail when you go in with the proper research and give it your 100%).
I wish I could tell you more, but for now, this is it.
Have a wonderful week ahead, and remember to keep introspecting, keep rewriting your goals, and keep dreaming BIG, no matter how much it scares the sh*t out of you.
Before we leave, here are my best articles of the past week (friend links):
4 *Boring* Skills I Had to Cultivate to Become A Successful Writer
3 Inspiring Memoirs of Offbeat Lives That Changed the Way I Think
That’s all for this week. If you have any specific questions, I’d be happy to answer. All you need to do is leave a reply to this email or drop a comment below.
If you’ve felt similar to how I’m feeling, I’d love to hear your story as well. Let’s talk, and I’m sure we can inspire each other to keep moving ahead.
I will see you again next week.
Until then, stay awesome and keep smiling.
Lots of love,
Anangsha
I'm curious what this big secret project is.
Hi Anangsha, although I cannot empathize with what you are going through, I'm sure that you'll get through this and I'm also sure that whatever you do you'll inspire me.